Starting all over again

This year has and still is a tough one. I made some decision which some I thought were right ones with the way I was feeling at the time and others were just straight up stupid. But either way, these decisions have had some major consequences.

I can and probably will continue to beat myself up over it until I learn to accept my mistakes. To find some light at the end and grow from it. Until then I am in the depressed as shit fuck me mode.

But I am deleting my old site and all it's entries as a means of me learning to cope. To some way find acceptance and move forward. 

So while I am still trying to figure myself out and climb out of the hole that I am still digging I am trying to start fresh, new. 

Because we all deserve a redo, to spawn again, right?